3 months into my journey

I am now three months into my journey of change. I decided that now is the time. Im tired of not feeling like, looking like or living like the woman I know I am. Its very frustrating to know that I grew up healthy, and until I started having multiple medical problems I was actually able to walk up a hill without thinking I was going to pass out. I was once active. I loved to ride bikes, rollerskate, go to the gym, swim and embark on multiple miles of walking.

Three months ago I said no more. I know its going to be a journey full of struggle and soul searching. Looking deep within my obese body and finding the strength to say no to that cheesecake and yes to the fresh fruit. At the end of 6 months I have decided to add another tool to my weight loss journey. But to start I will be more aware of what I feed my hunger and what steps I take everyday. It has been my struggle for at least 10 years now. Im too young and potentially have too much life left to just let myself go like this. So Im taking the steps. My legs forsake me much of the time. But I keep going knowing that even though now they are sore and swollen that one day it will get better. And more and more each day it will be easier.

I started a Weight loss/health team at work. We are calling ourselves the "Sassy Sirens". There are 18 of us who have decided to help each other and be supportive to one anothers efforts. Since starting that team in May I have lost 18.8 pounds. I have been eating little carbs and trying to do my best to not skip meals. We go walking around the lake at work and then we gather as a group and walk around another lake in the evenings. It is the support and shared vision of a healthier life that makes it so much easier in a group. I cant wait to see our results in a year!

But for me, its about being able to live the life I want to live. I cant enjoy swimming right now because you couldnt pay me to wear a bathing suit. I cant bike ride because I get to sore with my big self on a bike. I cant run and play with my grandsons.

Im preparing myself for the changes to come soon. Im not naive enough to think its all going to happen overnite or even be easier. But it will be possible. And just the possibility of having my life back will be worth the journey.